Taking More Steps Towards Healing

I took another huge step today towards healing. I've been struggling lately with my endeavor to beat self injury, more than usual. I don't know what triggered this struggle, but I have realized that I don't need to face this thing alone. I looked around me and saw that I have people that depend on me. I have patients in the hospital where I work that need someone to be a beacon of light in their time of need. I have a wonderful family who needs to know that I am okay. I have some close friends who would do anything for me.

While none of these people (with the exception of one friend) know anything about my battle with SI, I saw them and found the strength I needed to talk to my doctor. I sat there so nervous in the doctor's office, waiting for him to come see me. I could barely sit still. Part of me wanted to make a mad dash out of the room and part of me told myself that I would feel better if I stayed. I'm so glad I listened to the voice that told me to stay, because I feel like a great weight has been lifted from me. I told him how I was feeling and how I was having so much trouble doing daily things. I didn't tell him about the SI, but I didn't have to. He was so understanding and so open to listening. He told me to continue seeking counselling at my college and he put me on some medicine to help me get through this.

If anyone is having this problem, please go to your doctor. It's scary, I'm not going to lie, but I wish I had done this 5 years ago when I started having problems. I feel so much better. I feel like I am getting a chance at rebuilding again. A new door has opened for me and it can open for you too!

Much loves and hugs,

<3Nico